All through my life I've had low self confidence and i was okay with it up until last year, I made a few extremely bad choices, that deeply affected a friend of mine, that stemmed from the fact that i have no self respect whatsoever. And i keep putting up with things hurting me because I'm afraid that's all I'll ever get in life. I realise the root of the problem but i don't know how to change it.

I am in my early 20's and I've started going to the gym to start somewhere and it's working but I'm worried that when i go back into the world, I'd still be affected by the people around me.

There are a lot of problems i have to fix right now, but this is constantly running in my head because I cannot keep living like this.

Any advice would be appreciated, Thank you!