can we talk about how loud "skinny" is again right now? like it never really left but it feels like it's EVERYWHERE lately and no one's saying the quiet part for those of us who've struggled with food/body stuff this isn't just an aesthetic trend scrolling by. it's genuinely scary. it creeps into your head before you even notice it happening.

i've been in recovery for a while and i still felt myself spiraling a little this week just from being online. so if you're feeling that too...youre not weak, you're not "too sensitive," your nervous system is reacting to something real. sending love to anyone who needs to hear that today.

I'm becoming more and more aware of when I'm acting out my compulsions. Like, I'll be doing the thing, then it'll take me a few moments or minutes, but I'll actually have the thought: "Oh, this is my OCD!" It's been months and months of that: awareness but no action. I feel stuck, like I don't have the self-discipline to actually stop my compulsion once it's happening... or maybe it's that I hate the feeling of my anxiety so much, and stopping would mean facing it head on, so acting on my compulsion is just better, even if I still feel stressed while doing it. Does that make sense to anyone? Have you are been or are you at a similar spot in your OCD management journey?

hey!! I recently have been getting super into astrology since I moved to CA which I know is pretty basic. But growing up in a strict religious household, astrology is like a breath of fresh air. I am not ready to give up on the ~universe~ having a role in my life but God is a man and a bad one imo. So I'd love to grow my little community of astrology peeps and I started Chani's book on it which i love and it is hitting me in all my feels!!!

I dont know man taking a chance here. My good friend who is a girl well we just got in a big fight. She feels like I am jsut like all the rest and it sucks. Recently she didnt like some things I have said about the current state of stuff or maybe what I didnt say. It didnt help that a friend of mine last time we went out made a comment about the girl he is talking to and that shes not the hottest girl in the room - i know i know that was bad. I want things to resolve and I want us to stay friends but she really does feel done with me at times adn maybe she is.

Bruh facebook is such a chaotic place these days that I cannot deal with it. I dont even go on facebook but gd they are so stupid. I recently logged on to check fb marketplace and woowwww I was blown away by the losers in high school and the loser boomers gobbling up misinformation like its candy, are they really that gullible? its embarrassing. so I got in a fight with some people on fb - i couldnt help myself and now i feel even weirder than I did before. and im scared other people saw or my family and theyre gonna talk about it behind my back bc i am the "crazy lib" I know i have to have these conversations especially in my inner circle aka family and friends but it sitll feels so angering and a lost cause. 

i know i did this to myself but i just needed to vent!!!