I'm becoming more and more aware of when I'm acting out my compulsions. Like, I'll be doing the thing, then it'll take me a few moments or minutes, but I'll actually have the thought: "Oh, this is my OCD!" It's been months and months of that: awareness but no action. I feel stuck, like I don't have the self-discipline to actually stop my compulsion once it's happening... or maybe it's that I hate the feeling of my anxiety so much, and stopping would mean facing it head on, so acting on my compulsion is just better, even if I still feel stressed while doing it. Does that make sense to anyone? Have you are been or are you at a similar spot in your OCD management journey?

hey!! I recently have been getting super into astrology since I moved to CA which I know is pretty basic. But growing up in a strict religious household, astrology is like a breath of fresh air. I am not ready to give up on the ~universe~ having a role in my life but God is a man and a bad one imo. So I'd love to grow my little community of astrology peeps and I started Chani's book on it which i love and it is hitting me in all my feels!!!

I dont know man taking a chance here. My good friend who is a girl well we just got in a big fight. She feels like I am jsut like all the rest and it sucks. Recently she didnt like some things I have said about the current state of stuff or maybe what I didnt say. It didnt help that a friend of mine last time we went out made a comment about the girl he is talking to and that shes not the hottest girl in the room - i know i know that was bad. I want things to resolve and I want us to stay friends but she really does feel done with me at times adn maybe she is.

Bruh facebook is such a chaotic place these days that I cannot deal with it. I dont even go on facebook but gd they are so stupid. I recently logged on to check fb marketplace and woowwww I was blown away by the losers in high school and the loser boomers gobbling up misinformation like its candy, are they really that gullible? its embarrassing. so I got in a fight with some people on fb - i couldnt help myself and now i feel even weirder than I did before. and im scared other people saw or my family and theyre gonna talk about it behind my back bc i am the "crazy lib" I know i have to have these conversations especially in my inner circle aka family and friends but it sitll feels so angering and a lost cause. 

i know i did this to myself but i just needed to vent!!!

I dont know how older people lived through wars because it is seriously feeling like shit is hitting the fan. I cannot believe it honestly. I keep trying to seek out old people and what they think of this time and their reactions run the gambit from apathy to complete shock. It is a little disheartening to be honest. 

I am seeking comfort and trying to do all the right things by getting involved in my community I guess but it does not feel like enough. And now I am so paranoid because social media is like all bots now???? WHAT??? so yeah just wanted to check in with these people because you guys don't feel like bots....yet...LOL