hey!! I recently have been getting super into astrology since I moved to CA which I know is pretty basic. But growing up in a strict religious household, astrology is like a breath of fresh air. I am not ready to give up on the ~universe~ having a role in my life but God is a man and a bad one imo. So I'd love to grow my little community of astrology peeps and I started Chani's book on it which i love and it is hitting me in all my feels!!!

I dont know man taking a chance here. My good friend who is a girl well we just got in a big fight. She feels like I am jsut like all the rest and it sucks. Recently she didnt like some things I have said about the current state of stuff or maybe what I didnt say. It didnt help that a friend of mine last time we went out made a comment about the girl he is talking to and that shes not the hottest girl in the room - i know i know that was bad. I want things to resolve and I want us to stay friends but she really does feel done with me at times adn maybe she is.

Bruh facebook is such a chaotic place these days that I cannot deal with it. I dont even go on facebook but gd they are so stupid. I recently logged on to check fb marketplace and woowwww I was blown away by the losers in high school and the loser boomers gobbling up misinformation like its candy, are they really that gullible? its embarrassing. so I got in a fight with some people on fb - i couldnt help myself and now i feel even weirder than I did before. and im scared other people saw or my family and theyre gonna talk about it behind my back bc i am the "crazy lib" I know i have to have these conversations especially in my inner circle aka family and friends but it sitll feels so angering and a lost cause. 

i know i did this to myself but i just needed to vent!!!

I dont know how older people lived through wars because it is seriously feeling like shit is hitting the fan. I cannot believe it honestly. I keep trying to seek out old people and what they think of this time and their reactions run the gambit from apathy to complete shock. It is a little disheartening to be honest. 

I am seeking comfort and trying to do all the right things by getting involved in my community I guess but it does not feel like enough. And now I am so paranoid because social media is like all bots now???? WHAT??? so yeah just wanted to check in with these people because you guys don't feel like bots....yet...LOL

It's been a few weeks and I have officially deleted social media (not for good...yet pls dont judge me!!) and I just cannot believe we are watching all of this unfold in real time. The complete denial from the "govt" of what has been going is so crazy and disgusting I feel so upset. Even though it is not happening in my neighborhood to the extent that it is happening at all feels like it is in my own backyard. 

How are you guys feeling about it all? What are you seeing? </3