I left my job back in February and immediately felt a huge amount of pressure come off me. However, I quickly switched into nomadic planning life. Full time traveling is fun, however having to always make decisions can get hard. My inner thoughts of "I shoulda done ..." or "If I had only ..." have been getting louder these days. I notice these inner dialogues are easy to fuel as pushing a decision 1 day can mean an extra $100 on that plane ticket, or no more availability at that Hostel. 

I stick with my affirmations and journaling however ... I would love to hear if anyone else has left something really stressful to do something that seemed less stressful for it to actually create an almost equal amount of indecisive procrastination stress. 

Why am I always anxious or sad? Even when I have some stability, family is fine, I have a lover, friends. I feel like nothing is gonna fix me and that's just sad. And to be always sad is so boring to be honest.

ok so I think I have developed some kind of social anxiety post pandemic now I know that is kinda normal but I also think it is more because of the environment I live in. 

I am a queer woman in Florida... so not that helpful. Even the women I am dating a bit sound more used to it than anything but I obviously dont feel comfortable holding hands in public or anything - being my normal affectionate self. 

I get to leave Florida whenever I want but a lot of people arent as lucky ya know?

I meditate but I never know if I should start medicine or something. Pros and cons?