I really never thought some of my best friends would tell me I would be going to hell bc of my sexuality. I am so close with all of my friends and I genuinely built a circle that I admire and represents my values and ideals. 

But clearly I missed something among all the bible studies. It is crazy bc my one friend and I have been through so much and yet she got mad at me when I asked for space after I came out to her. She was supportive in her own way but it didnt feel right. 

Turns out it never felt right. Six months later it kept bothering me until i had to point blank ask her - do you think I am going to hell for this? She said yes. 

And the rest is history. But i miss her all the time. I dont think this is something we will ever be able to recover from.

coming out to my parents for the first time, i feel late to the whole "queer journey" and dont know how to feel half the time